endings

Summer is almost officially over, all my best friends are gone, my boyfriend leaves this Friday, and my classes begin next Tuesday. I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed. This summer has gone way too fast. 

Although I am incredibly excited for the actual content of my classes, I am so so nervous to have to try and make friends without anyone to fall back on. It's easy to make friends when you have people to eat lunch with everyday. I'm pretty terrified of being alone. Really since 2nd grade I haven't gone to a new place where I knew absolutely no one. I am so so so terrified and excited and overflowing with emotions to the point where I am in shock and can't feel anything at all. I'm just waiting for the wave hit. I'm starting school where I know no one and no one knows me.   I am lucky in a sense to know the area so at least I don't have that to get used to, but in another sense, I am so bored of this place. I think I need to get away to truly appreciate it. 

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These photos are from the trip I took with Madeline and Natalie. Madeline, Natalie, and I have been friends since middle school, and Madeline was my first best friend in kindergarten. I have been friends with her for 12 years. How totally scary and weird to not be going to school with her this year. This was an absolutely amazing trip to go on together for the end of the summer. Going on trips in California reminds me how truly amazing this state is, and how lucky I am to be staying here. These photos capture the beauty of the beautiful state where I live and the beautiful people I have grown up with. 

We saw the cutest puppy on the beach!!

(literally purple rain?!?!?)

I hope you're all doing well, and your start of the school year treats you well. I've been journaling quite a bit, so a journal post will be up soon! With my friends all gone, hopefully more energy will be put into this blog, because I will be bored as hell and super alone. 

xoxo

Maya

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I've been sick for the last few days and I got my new computer (!!!), so naturally I've been doing a lot of organizing, and I found these outfit photos that I never posted. I like where they were taken (that mural is my favourite), so I decided to post them now. Also I just started a new journal after finishing my last one! I'm very excited. Although I don't LOVE that it is lined, the cover is glittery and that sorta sold it. It's also pretty small, so I can bring it places and doodle without worrying about space. I'm pumped! I can't wait to have more pages to show, but for now, here's a little sneak peek!

I've been doing a series of "Today I feel..." journal entires, which I'm reallllly liking so far. (No one steal this idea, I will find you)

When I wore this outfit (literally in April of 2013), an old man was like "wow you like somethin straight outta my childhood!" and I smiled. 

I've gone to Thrift Town an insane amount of times this summer

Me being ~overly emotional~ and torn between happiness that I will continue to live in such a beautiful place, or sadness that all my friends will be leaving and I'll be staying behind. 

"Spacing Out" doodle I did at camp (her left arm is not that skinny, I just drew the top of the boob wrong originally, but now the arm looks crazy skinny)

Left: "Goodbyes", the cover page of my new journal. Everyone's leaving. I'm saying goodbye to most of my friends for a pretty long time. Some maybe even forever. I'm not trying to be ~dramatic~, but it's really what's going on in my life right now. And it kind of sucks//Right: Another little minute doodle I did. 

Hoping you are all well, and not sick like me :(

xo

Maya