Saturday, February 4, 2017

Wear the Color and Become the Color

I am back at school! Woah! It simultaneously feels like I've been away forever, and like I've been away for a day. I also missed almost my whole first week from the flu, which held me back a bit and made my first few weeks a bit off, but I think I'm back on track finally. I was really worried about coming back because of all the artists block I was experiencing last semester--I really didn't want to spend a whole other semester making things that didn't feel right or exciting and I even toyed with the idea of taking a semester off because I felt in such a funk! I am happy to announce, however, that (knock on wood) I'm feeling a lot better and more excited about making things again! I have two studio classes this semester and they're both really different than the studios I've had the past few semesters--one Bookmaking/Papermaking class and one class on Natural Dyeing. Both are so new to me that I'm learning a lot already! And the new processes are really getting me out of my funk because they really tie in with the processes I already know and I'm very excited to combine them! I feel very inspired!
It's gonna be a hard semester. I'm taking six classes, which is more than I have ever taken in the past, so I'm hoping I won't get too burnt out and hoping I can stay on top of all the work I have to get done! Also, everything that's going on in the world is terrifying and anxiety depletes my energy really fast. But I'm trying to be more active; to fight in the ways I can. Be energized by the fight rather than feeling overwhelmed by what I can't do. 
Shaker gift drawing behind me: Polly Jane Reed, A Type of Mother Hannah's Pocket handkerchief, Drawn by Father James for Jane Blanchard, New Lebanon, N.Y., 1851. Ink and watercolor on paper; H. 14", W. 17". 
Stepped On: Double cloth pickup woven rug I made displayed in the Text-Tales show. Text on the rug reads "heart hurt" all weft yarns were dyed with makeup. 
My adorable grandma interacting with her jacket on display at the Text-Tales show. 

I'm wearing more bright colors and makeup lately to fuel my energy. Wear the color and become the color. I want to continue this energized feeling I have! I need to continue to work hard and be making things as much as I possibly can! Speaking of which, I need to get back to journaling. 

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Warm & Bright & Strong

I am back at school! Woah! I am happy to announce that (knock on wood) I'm feeling a lot better and more excited about making things again! I have two studio classes this semester and they're both really different than the studios I've had the past few semesters--one Bookmaking/Papermaking class and one class on Natural Dyeing. Both are so new to me that I'm learning a lot already! And the new processes are really getting me out of my funk. I feel very inspired! But I will talk more about that in a future post, when I post things I've been up to this semester.
This past break was very rejuvenating for me. I got a lot of rest and had a lot of fun and although I wasn't sure when it ended whether or not I felt recharged, now that I'm back and after a brief sickness, I do feel reinvigorated and ready for school. I had my birthday, Christmas, and finished a journal so I have a lot to share!
1. grandmas hectic but beautiful kitchen (beauty in chaos) //
2. through a window at the botanical gardens //
1. a plant I bought for Zach that I had to buckle into the car when I was driving it home // 
2. my grandma has a key for how to do different smiley faces on the computer //
 // showing process of creating textile designs-- from journal page to pattern back to journal page //
1. new year new orange // I feel like just about every December/January I have to paint an orange // 
2. me and Ava at Christmas lunch. I have a specific color pallet I've been wearing/journaling in/making art with lately //

1. me and my grandma--both wearing the powerful yellow (she's wearing the jacket I made her--more photos in this post) //
2. "Yellow is strong and bold and bright and warm. Yellow may be my inspiration in 2017." 
// vulnerability and strength, positivity and strength //

1. floral pattern in the background of my outfit selfie is a pattern I've been working on over this break--working with different color ways--hopefully I'll print it on fabric soon! //
2. Sol Le Witt's artwork from the SFMOMA //
1. from my trip to Monterey, in the bathroom of a vegan Mexican restaurant // 
2. everyday inspirations--also from my trip to Monterey. I'm really loving royal blue with orange right now. and floral patterns now and always //
1. from the Monterey Bay Aquarium with Zach--the first image is of a bigger jellyfish eating a smaller one! they fed the smaller jellies to the bigger jellies on a stick! WILD //
1. inspirational Christmas wrapping from kid's paintings. also inspirational self-love thought--my aunt gave a gift to herself //
 2. a photo of two of my friends in an Aquarium both wearing the all powerful YELLOW //
1. a journal entry from my trip to Monterey with Zach painting the view out the window from the little house we were staying at. The quote is from Paris, Je T'aime, I have never read/watched anything that so perfectly described this feeling! I have experienced this exact emotions and never been able to put it into words //
// "Sitting there, alone in a foreign country, far from my job and everyone I know, a feeling came over me. It was like remembering something I'd never known before or had always been waiting for, but I didn't know what. Maybe it was something I'd forgotten or something I've been missing all my life. All I can say is that I felt, at the same time, joy and sadness. But not too much sadness, because I felt alive. Yes, alive"  // 
2. the main house and garden from the Airbnb we stayed at --inspiring and beautiful home //
1. an amazing rock I found (!!) with Zach in the background foraging for cool shells // 
2. a journal entry about forcing myself to make things and do exciting and fun things to inspire myself overlaid on and image from a beach in Monterey //
images my friend took from a cute brunch we had--Cantaloupe, painting nails, and discussing positive friendships and life plans //

1. "emotion motion" journal entry painted entirely with different kinds of clay/dirt //
2. clay on the beach in Monterey //

1. the centerpiece on the table from Christmas lunch at my grandparent's house // 
2. different plans of garments using a print I've been designing in all different color ways //
1. from the beginning of my journal this summer--now reflecting on my semester goals, and reaffirming some of the same goals for this coming semester "vulnerable/spontaneous/excited/questioning/creative" // 
2. (border) more rocks from my Monterey trip //
1. slivers of light, pops of red -- thinking about color schemes, thinking about aesthetics of 1970s crocheted coasters // 
2. Natalie at the SFMOMA // slivers of red //
1. New Years Eve-- a photo that feels so genuinely happy and fun (me and Claire drunk and laughing at a party of people we didn't know taken by an angel and ray of light, Hanne) // 
2. a pattern sketch from my journal that is so exactly New Years Eve //
1. a new tattoo I gave myself of a Mountain Girl that Eryn drew. when I get my shading needles in the mail (and after it's healed) I'll shade in her hair // 
2. more snippets of patterns designed in my journal // 

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

2017 Unconscious Connections

It's 2017! Wowie. I don't have to go into what a shit-show 2016 was, but I'm ready for it to be over. Of course, it's going to be a terrifying new year and I'm worried for what will come, but for now, I'll focus on my personal resolutions and some stuff that I've done in 2016.
I completed three journals this year, which is less than I have in the past (2015 I finished five (I think), 2014 I finished five).
I've talked about this a lot in previous posts, but this past semester was very difficult for me creation wise. Partly, I think it has to do with the fact that I make so much stuff for school that it's hard to make things outside of what is required. Additionally, I've just been having an intense inspirational block like I really haven't ever experienced before. I've talked about this block in this post, and before that this post, but I'm still really feeling it and still just not sure how to get out of it. I'm hoping this break has recharged me and my new classes will inspire me, but who knows! If anyone has any artist block suggestions let me know!
In discussing what I might want to do for my Senior Show (which is coming up quicker than I thought! yikes), one of my teachers told me to explore the unconscious connections between things that I make. This is something I've thought about before, without ever putting it into the words unconscious connections. I made a post where I matched journal entires to outfits I've worn, I've always kind of integrated journal pages with outfit photos and things that have been going on in my life, and a few years ago, I made a post with a photo of journal entries that matched each other from different times that year. With that in mind, I did something similar with the three journals I filled this year.

Also, I've been taking videos of a flip through of my journals the past few times I've finished them, so that I have a flip through video of each of these journals this year! You can now see every page. Also, if you go to my Vimeo, there's another video of a journal from last year you can see too. 

October 2015 - April 2017

To Open Pull Here from Maya Gulassa on Vimeo.

June and July 2016

Salt from Maya Gulassa on Vimeo.

July 2016 - January 2017

Personal Protection from Maya Gulassa on Vimeo.

And lastly, my resolutions for 2017:

  • Journal more--I want to touch my journal every day. It doesn't mean I have to make a full entry every day, but make a mark. 
  • I'm trying to keep a calendar of months at each start of the month in my journal, and write what I've done each day in it to keep memories alive, and organize myself! I'm bad with dates and I want to be better.
  • Update this more (once a month at least)--is that a resolution every year? Maybe. Doesn't mean I don't want to still try!
  • Be adventurous--every personality test I take says I love adventure, and yet I find myself not being spontaneous enough in my every day life. Spontaneity appeals to me in the vague sense, but I never practice it.
Happy New Year! Send me your tips for artist's block!